Why I Chose To Pursue My Purpose
I've been asked by friends, family, and even women I've met on Instagram, "What made you decide to open your own boutique?" I never gave just one answer. Well, I knew being in fashion was for me. I have worked at retail stores, fashion markets, with designers, and photographers, merchandised showrooms, along side wardrobe stylists, art directors, models and producers, and of course fashion shows. It has been my life. I knew I always wanted to open my own boutique one day. So back in 2017, I was in a rut. When Lincoln was born I became a full-time SAHM. A HUGE shift to say the least. I had never not worked since I was in high school! The adjusting was extremely difficult. I was in a new city, with no mama friends, or family and a newborn with an incredibly hard working husband. As Lincoln was getting more independent I was still feeling lost and longing for something, ANYTHING that felt like it was just for me and something I could enjoy and be proud of. I had become used to the "mom lifestyle" I watched way too much tv, wore my hair is a messy bun, rarely showered or wore anything other than lounge clothes and I was depressed. This was the first time in my life I felt like I was a failure. I was absolutely miserable. I began looking online for work from home positions. I applied to anything and everything that appealed to me. It wasn't for financial reasons, but for my sanity. I had interview after interview and even accepted three separate offers. It wasn't what I wanted. I was quickly right back where I started. Unhappy, trying to force something I knew was not right. My husband did not want me working any of the jobs I told him about. He found a reason to shoot it down and tell me why it was not a good fit. I cried, and cried and again felt like a failure, unsupported and even more depressed. I prayed and asked God for a sign, a reason, an explanation for why I could not find happiness within myself. I had recently decided to join a mothers support group, MOPS (Mom's Of Pre-Schoolers) a faith based group, and wouldn't you know it, things slowly started shifting. I hit it off with a women at my table the first night. We started doing things together daily, and we started to get to know one another. We talked about everything we were feeling and could relate on so many levels. I was still so insecure about myself and thought, there is no way I can even think about getting back into the fashion industry. We of course talked about my experiences and what I would love to do. She was supportive and kept nudging for me to start a style blog. It was a seed planted and the idea stayed there for several months. One day in September I was sitting at the kitchen table with my husband upset about another opportunity that did not work and said "What do you think about me opening a boutique?" His response was immediate "Absolutely." I was really taken aback and questioned him "Why? Why are you ok with this? After everything I've tried to do you've been so unsupportive and you're completely ok with this?" He replied "This is something you've always been passionate about, so I have no problem with this." It took a few moments to register. I was so excited at the thought I was going to do this. I was actually going to open my very OWN boutique and build my OWN brand. WOW. I spent the next few days researching and on September 28, 2017, I made Magnolia Palm a reality. My new reality. I officially opened March 20th 2018 online and have two pop-up events. I have already started shifting and making huge changes that I feel will improve my company and brand. It's been a hard road but 100% worth it. Stay Tuned for more updates!